The loss of an innocent - a tribute

Yesterday a tragedy happened in the form of [two] deaths - one of whom was a fellow classmate and a dear friend to many. These youths perished right before graduation - and with a bright future ahead. They were gone before their time in a most horrendous car accident and today we went to pay our respects bearing flowers, at the scene of the accident.

We took the bus and walked - the road still smudged with what seemed like shrouded blood and sand-like stains in the concrete. There were already many fellow mourners on the side of the road. I remember sitting quietly, staring at the mountain of flowers, bouquets lined around. There was a soft breeze, the sound drowned by the cars zooming past, with occasionally honking of recognition and silent gesture of the cross for respect (though there were some insanely rude people, one baboonish idiot who actually had the nerve to stick his rude finger out). A girl wailed in sadness and sobs as her friend comforted her and many were trying to stay strong, one, in his feign, eventually broke down on the ground and sobbed.

I sat silent, occasionally holding my hands together to pray. I did not feel the same excruciating pain as those that were close to these boys. But this was the least we could do, he was, after all, our dear classmate and was a little bundle of talent - with a bright future - but taken from him. After this loss: school - art class, will not the same. Our fellow classmates will not be the same.

Was it irresponsible driving? Most likely. Our friend was the passenger. It is disrespectful to pin the blame on another that also perished - but perhaps if the driver (whom I did not know, but was a friend of the one I did know) had taken more caution and obeyed the rules, there would be no need to see such anguished, saddened and depressed faces. But a death, is nonetheless a death, and these youths did not deserve such a demise.

Friends, learn from this - cherish your time with those you love and drive safely.

Rest in Peace.

An unexpected call

AFS unexpectedly called me 10 minutes ago - I almost had a heart attack. Oh gosh. My heart is beating so fast!

They conducted, what I assumed was a phone interview for the scholarship I applied for.

From my hazy memory, it wasn't a long interview and I can only remember two questions they asked: 1) What would I do if I wanted to tell my host family something, but I couldn't because they can't speak English, and 2) Why do I want to go to Japan?

Pretty simple questions, but I was put on the spot and caught off guard. I hesitated and with silliness, forgot the first question and had to ask for them to repeat it.

I wish wish wish I had thought more about my answer before I actually said it. For the first question I chucked in something about acting out, drawing it out - but did it ever occur to me I could have said I could use a dictionary or google translator lol! And for the second question, I wish I added something about my future pursuits. Dammit. I did alright, but nto too good for the impromptu interview.

Guess I'll have to rely on my application to get me through.

Please, let it be this

Or the 4 week scholarship they offered me to apply for.

I will sit quetly, and hope that I did well enough, while my heart palpitates wildly to this unexpected phone call that would decide my fate for next year~


Okay~ Lets calm down girl! I'll be happy for any results~ Gap year or uni, I'll be satisfied with both, I guess. On a happier note, I officially have no more school assignments now (as I handed in that essay today!) yay ♥

Daily life #1

Another uneventful day of bludge, bludge, bludge. I guess theres not much to type about besides the trivial things in life.

After this, I must resume (no actually, start) my final assignment/essay!

Borrowed a new book and returned the two I had previously finished reading:

[x] Hattie Big Sky by Kirby Larson - It was an enjoyable book, though lacking some romance. It was centered on the theme of family and self discovery. I do hope a sequel comes out - I found the ending lacking in concluding the protagonist's romances!
[x] Evernight by Claudia Gray - It was.... alright. It reminded me of... Twilight *gags*. Perhaps a bit better than Twilight, but nonetheless... Another angsty and juvenile teen vamp romance novel...

Also borrowed another book too: The Poison Throne by Celine Kiernan, part of the Moorehawke Trilogy. From what I gather (and I have yet to start reading it), its another three-part fantasy series, and like many fantasy novels I read (ala Tamora Pierce and Isobelle Camody and to an extent Felicity Pulman) centered around a strong heroine in a patriarchal society.

On another note, I feel lifeless like usual. Like nothing has a purpose in this continuous cycle. I think too much. I've been (no, not lately, rather it has always been like this) inside the house, in solitary company, even in fine weather. Or maybe it's because I've been finding myself reading the josei manga 君はペット (Kimi wa Pet) lately and I'm suggesting my future life may parallel the heroine's (for some... strange reason or another). I dwelve on things in my mind, things that I don't really have to think about. Maybe I should shut these cynical thoughts out and pretend to be at lease a little cheerful (this word 明るい would sound better though), I mean its been like this for a while now. Lie, lie, partial truth, lie. People say they want truth, but in reality, as cliche as it sounds, most cannot handle the truth. Hmmm, perhaps I should get out more and meet more people (perhaps with similar interest as I?).

Yes...And that is today.

Enough about me - Oh fudge; I just remembered that I must print some stuff for my Visual Arts Diary. Will get onto that after I finish that damned essay.